To Know The Fathers Love

Valentines Day.

What do you think of when you hear that?

Does it make you feel gooey inside?
Does it make you feel angry?

Someone can feel a wide variety of emotions on this Hallmark Holiday. Many even try to avoid the day all together!  So many of us can feel unloved, unwanted, used, hurt…so we avoid any and all things that are related to LOVE.

If we are honest with ourselves we would agree that we have Daddy issues.  Even if we had the greatest daddy on the face of the earth, they have hurt us.  There are moments we have felt abandoned, unloved, and forgotten.  Some of our scars are deeper and more painful than others, regardless we all have those scars.  We all have that in common.

I was very young when my parents divorced.  As a 3 year old I could not fully comprehend what was going on, and yet I knew that everything was NOT okay.  Something was different.  I lived with my mom after the divorce and my father moved about 4 hours away.  I did not see my dad for years.  There were multiple times he would set up a time to pick me up so I could go visit him for a weekend.  Without fail, I would stand at the front window, bags packed, looking for my daddy, He wouldn’t show.  Not even a phone call.  My little fragile heart would be crushed.   It wasn’t until my early years of college that we were able to start rebuilding our broken relationship. Due to the hurt in my heart, I longed for relationship.  I longed for companionship.  I ran from relationship to relationship trying to fill this hurt and void.  A hurt and void that could only be healed and filled by the love of a Father.

In 2004, I was attending a Church in Brooklyn Park, MN and in God’s timing I was connected with an amazing man!  Pastor TB was like the father I never had!  He was full of love and support.  Through him and a ministry at my church I went through some classes on Inner Healing.  I learned through these classes the power of letting myself feel the pain, and allow God to come in and Heal my heart.

For the first time in my life, I felt the love of a Father who loved me unconditionally and with no fault.  I opened up my heart to a God who IS Love.  It was at that time I realized my earthly father was broken just like I was.  I had a choice that day, I could either allow God to fully come into my heart and heal my heart and break the cycle of hurt for the day I would be a father, or I could push My Heavenly Father away to keep Him at arms length, acknowledge He existed but not fully embrace Him.  That day I chose to embrace Him.

My life has never been the same.  Yes I still have hurt. Yes I still have moments of feeling unloved.  But I have learned to Embrace and have Commited to Know the Fathers Love!

The Biggest Realization I could receive was that No matter what happens around me or to me, I could always run into the Loving Embrace of my Heavenly Father and Feel His Love and Acceptance! Anytime! Anywhere!

Life is a journey of ups and downs, highs and lows, bliss and hurt.  But there is only one place you can turn to heal the hurt and to truly feel loved…

Turn to your Heavenly Father, acknowledge He is Real, and simply give Him permission to come into your life, into your heart, and allow Him to begin healing those areas! 

It will be very painful initially.  But it is so worth it!  The Freedom from the Pain of feeling Unloved!




*If you want to know more about what this looks like you can reach out to Derrick through this website or via form below


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